Bewailment of a Lonely Soul

Days of dark shaded sun

My sorrows became colorless

I hide my wounds in a smile

I hide my bloody broken heart

I found my dreams are sinking

A manner of wild and worried

I lost myself in search of shelter

The faded memories are alive

Still it is haunting me

I tried to run from myself

I destroyed myself for nothing

Still fighting against the past

But surrender to the fate

I surrender to my past

Knelt down in front of it

My eyes teared few drops

I cried as it was my end

I brought back to my coffin

Again I saw my graveyard

Sorrounded by darkness

I am all alone here

In my dark bloody coffin

Alone and awaiting my death

Time & Changes

Time is working
For a sudden change
At this moment
On the end of this day
My life, my ways are falling
With every change of time
Still waiting for a dream
Still hoping for unknown
I needed few more time
To prove my truth
Time changed everything
I lost my past
In those rush hours
I remember everything
I lost my feelings
And my beloved ones
Left with my wet eyes
I crawled in my dreams
Screamed without sound
Time is still running
Changing every moment
Last second was past
In search of new moment
Time is stepping forward
Waiting for no one
But changing everything
And changing everybody

Shade of thoughts

I looked back again to that road
I knew you are gone
The road was empty
I felt same emptiness inside me
I was alone all the way back
It was hard for me to move
I don't know when I see you next
Why am I so much attached with you?
What is my relation with you?
You are the one who found me
My head was down all the way
I felt your presence near me
I looked for you but found nobody
I drowned in your thought for long
May be you too are missing me
May be you too are feeling the same
I heard your voice in my mind
Once again your absence made me down
Once again I drowned in your thoughts

Changes

Change of days,
And change of nights
I found changes in sun,
And changes in moon
My life is changing day by day
My dreams are fading day by day
I saw lonely shadows,
And dimmed lights around
Till I stands in crowd,
I felt as I am alone
I am a part of this changing world
So I closed the doors,
Of my broken heart,
And changed myself,
For this unkind world

Seeking for death

Oh ! bloody night,
Don't let the sun rise again
Let me end with this dream
Let me die in me
Don't let me fail again
I want to win this time
Oh !dear night,
You are my only hope
Don't let me alive
Kill me before the new day
Let me die in your arms
I can't face the morning
My life is scary and faded
I want to be a shadow now
Allow me to become one
Take my life for others sake
Let me sleep for ever
Oh ! bloody night,
Let me die tonight
Let me go deep into dreams
Into the dreams of death

Enter the Death

'Death is what once happen to all
For the end of the days
And for the worst nightmares
Is the real truth of all's life

'Death is what I call new beginning
A beginning to a new life
To a new world we can't enter
Without leaving our body

'Death is the gateway for life
To forget the past and present
To discover one's future
A life without tense and worries

'Death is the keyhole to life
A life of fearless days
Leaving the past and loss
Entering a peaceful unknown world

Love and Death

She drilled a nail to my chest
I shivered with pain

Tears came out of my eyes
And she was grinning

My dark blood was every where
And in her hands also

Then she made a cut with a knife
On my wounded chest

I felt pain on my left chest
And I screamed out loud

She touched the knife on my lips
An indication for no voice

The knife had two sharp edges
Shining like made of silver

Once again she made a cut on my chest
Its sharp point was touching my heart

I saw the same sharpness in her eyes too
Which was more than scary

I saw some tear drops on her  cheeks
I wiped it with my stiffed hands

I hold her hands and kissed on it
And she was smiling

I am dieng here for her better life
And I am happy for that

Unknowingly I touched my own chest
Felt something empty

It was my heart what I have lost
I faked a smile at her

It was my last moment before closing my eyes
Then I fell into my dark dreams