Shade of thoughts

I looked back again to that road
I knew you are gone
The road was empty
I felt same emptiness inside me
I was alone all the way back
It was hard for me to move
I don't know when I see you next
Why am I so much attached with you?
What is my relation with you?
You are the one who found me
My head was down all the way
I felt your presence near me
I looked for you but found nobody
I drowned in your thought for long
May be you too are missing me
May be you too are feeling the same
I heard your voice in my mind
Once again your absence made me down
Once again I drowned in your thoughts

Changes

Change of days,
And change of nights
I found changes in sun,
And changes in moon
My life is changing day by day
My dreams are fading day by day
I saw lonely shadows,
And dimmed lights around
Till I stands in crowd,
I felt as I am alone
I am a part of this changing world
So I closed the doors,
Of my broken heart,
And changed myself,
For this unkind world

Seeking for death

Oh ! bloody night,
Don't let the sun rise again
Let me end with this dream
Let me die in me
Don't let me fail again
I want to win this time
Oh !dear night,
You are my only hope
Don't let me alive
Kill me before the new day
Let me die in your arms
I can't face the morning
My life is scary and faded
I want to be a shadow now
Allow me to become one
Take my life for others sake
Let me sleep for ever
Oh ! bloody night,
Let me die tonight
Let me go deep into dreams
Into the dreams of death

Enter the Death

'Death is what once happen to all
For the end of the days
And for the worst nightmares
Is the real truth of all's life

'Death is what I call new beginning
A beginning to a new life
To a new world we can't enter
Without leaving our body

'Death is the gateway for life
To forget the past and present
To discover one's future
A life without tense and worries

'Death is the keyhole to life
A life of fearless days
Leaving the past and loss
Entering a peaceful unknown world

Love and Death

She drilled a nail to my chest
I shivered with pain

Tears came out of my eyes
And she was grinning

My dark blood was every where
And in her hands also

Then she made a cut with a knife
On my wounded chest

I felt pain on my left chest
And I screamed out loud

She touched the knife on my lips
An indication for no voice

The knife had two sharp edges
Shining like made of silver

Once again she made a cut on my chest
Its sharp point was touching my heart

I saw the same sharpness in her eyes too
Which was more than scary

I saw some tear drops on her  cheeks
I wiped it with my stiffed hands

I hold her hands and kissed on it
And she was smiling

I am dieng here for her better life
And I am happy for that

Unknowingly I touched my own chest
Felt something empty

It was my heart what I have lost
I faked a smile at her

It was my last moment before closing my eyes
Then I fell into my dark dreams

My last breath

Few more time left for me
I breath heavily
I remember the best time I had
I remember my past
I remember you and my love
I know its over
I needed you here with me
Nearby me on my last minutes
Nearby my death bed
Your memories are precious as you are
I value you over everything
I am falling into sleep
I felt abnormal
I whispered your name
I heard your voice
In my un-consious stage
I seen you in my minds view
Its my past coming in my mind
I tried to smile
But i felt something hot inside me
I tried to move and failed
My nostril threw a hot air out
It was my last breath

Haunting past

I looked through the open window
It was raining heavily
Some rain drops fell on my cheeks
And mixed up with my tears
I looked for the dark clouds
I saw something unusual
I find read clouds instead of black
Suddenly I realized I am also crying
My eyes were also red in color
I felt wetness in my cheeks
Spreading through the way to my chin
I tried to remember what I have lost
Its my own self what I lost
I lost myself in search of you
I am the person who loved you
My love was wild but true
I thought you will never leave
But you left me it was shocking
You don't know how much it affected me
Your absence took my life away
I changed myself for no reason
I cried every night thinking of you
I hoped you will come back one day
But I lost you in my dreams too
I know you are not remembering me
My pain, my tears, my love is unfinished
I locked myself here in my room
I locked myself for several days
I said I am okay and happy
I lied to everyone and smiled
But I only know what is happenning
I am alone with memories
I am alone with broken promises
I locked myself in my own broken shadows

Pain of seperation

Something is missing from me
And its you my dear
I walked through the paths again
I remember you and a tear fell
I hide it from myself
I wanted you to be with me again
I knew it was my selfishness
But I missed you that much
I wanted not to end that moments
I wanted to pause that moments
But the time was villain
The time only separate me from you
I want to hug that moments again
I miss you so much
I stayed on that flyover bridge so long
I stood there like a statue
I rewind that scene in my mind again
I can't explain how much I value you
But I feel like you are my world
I know not any brother is like me
But I love you my sister
My world is in you
My dreams are in you
I felt like I am alone in that paths
I felt I am alone in crowd
I walked again through the path
Where you and me spend the day

Death of a vampire

I lost myself on this empty road
I lost my sorrows and my broken dreams
I am standing in my coffin once again
A witch had left me on this lonely path
I am afraid and in tears
Once again i become unknown and alone
The world is too dark and hot for me
I fell on my knees and cried a river
She is unknown about my endless pain
She would never bothored about my true love
What i have lost is a part of heart
A wounded heart is bleeding now
My pain is increasing to its highest level
I cant face my fate alone
I know they are laughing at me
I felt guilty and ashamed 
I wanted to end this life
It is not the end of world
But the end of a bloody vampires life
A vampire is dieng here not to reborn again
My dirty eyes are tearing the blood
I am standing in my own blood
Nobody is caring for what i am doing
Nobody is here to want me alive
Maybe all are happy to see me dead
There will be only darkness after this day too
Nobody is here to give me a hand to hold
There is no shoulder for me to cry
Everyone left me with a noncurable pain inside me
I am alone in this unknown world
Afraid to face my bloody fate
I had lost myself so giving up
I burned candles around my coffin
But that was not enough to lighten the world
There is no value for love and care
I have chosen to end up my life
I want myself to not to reborn again
I stepped into my coffin and lied down
I am not comfort here but better than my fate
Choosed to end my life like this
I cried for nothing but for my past
I felt pain of unforgettable past
Feel that sense in my chest
I am ending life of this endless pain

Pain of Love

I miss you again this morning
You are the one who I love
The one who made my past better
But today I lost my senses for you
I looked for your message again
That is what I do every morning
There are so much unread messages
But none of them is yours
Are you there or not for me?
Do you ever miss me like I do?
Sometimes I feel like you are near
But that is just a part of Hallucination
Why are you hurting me this way?
Why are you ignoring me?
I remember a line someone said
'Love is like a war,
Easy to start, but
Difficult to end'

Deadly nightmares

End of a worst day
A dead shadow fell on me
It was black and huge
Its heavier more than I can handle
I felt something thick and sticky
The shadow was bleeding
I felt its blood on my face
Dark red colored blood
I tried to wipe it away
I saw the shadow grinning
Is this real or my nightmare?
I was caught by unknown fear
My body started shivering
I fell down on my knees
I felt cold in my head
I heard sounds of death
I saw the god of death very near
I saw blood on his sword
Is that my blood or what?
I felt darkness in my eyes
He touched my heart and smiled
I died at the very first moment
He took my soul and flew away

Dream of broken sorrows

Once again I dreamed of death
A day dream of broken sorrows
I punched myself on my face
To forget all these crappy things
She was in my mind and heart
She captured my thoughts
I tried to escape from her
But her thoughts were strong
It was enough to kill my brain
Half dead and half alive
I crawled through my own mind
Impossible to escape from her
My mind screamed thousand times
My wounded heart was bleeding
I am a victim of love and war
I was killed by my own inner thoughts
Once again I dreamed of death
A day dream of broken sorrows

Your Friendship

Before this day you were my friend
Today and everyday you are my friend
You made me feel I am not alone
You were near when I need a friend
You wiped my tears whenever I cried
Your words were enough to smile
Your friendship is a precious gift
Maybe you will never understand this
I value you my friend, my mentor
Whenever I fell down you pulled me up
I cried whenever you doubted me
I cried for you whenever you left me
It was my luck I met you
It is my luck that we are still friends
My friendship for you is written in heart
Maybe this story is written by god

Me, you and memories

A lonely tear fallen down
Rolled down through my cheeks
It was a day full of frustration
A day full of regrets

I cried for you my friend
Your words cut my heart
I felt the wound and blood
You make me dead

I faced you as facing bullets
It was shocking to see you angry
You shot your words at me
It was sharper than arrows

I died infront of you
But you didn't saw me
I crawled towards you
But you turned to other side

I fallen down into my past
Past where we were together
Past of happiness and smiles
The best place to live

You are my very best friend
But you left me in darkness
I am not complaining you
But I miss you my friend

You will never know my friendship
You are in my heart dear friend
I can't explain how i feel
How can I tell you my truth

I need your friendship
Need you to support me
I know nobody can take your place
Nobody is like you

You are the best one I found
You are best in my memories
I don't care if I am few of others
I will care for you till last breath

Nothing is good as our friendship
Even I am nothing for you
Even you are away from me
I will value you my friend

If you want to go away from me
I will never stop you
I will never cross your way
I want you to be happy

I will never complain you my friend
But you will live always in my heart
I will hold your memories tightly
And hug them whenever I miss you

My love for you

Today I am dreaming about you
Today I am wishing you were here
I am eager to see you near
How can I tell my love for you?
How can I not hide my love for you?
I am afraid of losing you
You are my friend but I love you
How can I show my heart to you?
All I want is your love
I want you to be my side forever
How can I let my dreams away?
I won't let you go away
You are my love but life too
How can I live without you?
Here I am saying I love you
I love you unconditionally
I love you for what you are
And for what I am when I am with you
I want to hold your hand
For my life long journey
I want you to love me like I love you
Give me the authority to say you are mine