Changes

Change of days,
And change of nights
I found changes in sun,
And changes in moon
My life is changing day by day
My dreams are fading day by day
I saw lonely shadows,
And dimmed lights around
Till I stands in crowd,
I felt as I am alone
I am a part of this changing world
So I closed the doors,
Of my broken heart,
And changed myself,
For this unkind world

Seeking for death

Oh ! bloody night,
Don't let the sun rise again
Let me end with this dream
Let me die in me
Don't let me fail again
I want to win this time
Oh !dear night,
You are my only hope
Don't let me alive
Kill me before the new day
Let me die in your arms
I can't face the morning
My life is scary and faded
I want to be a shadow now
Allow me to become one
Take my life for others sake
Let me sleep for ever
Oh ! bloody night,
Let me die tonight
Let me go deep into dreams
Into the dreams of death

Enter the Death

'Death is what once happen to all
For the end of the days
And for the worst nightmares
Is the real truth of all's life

'Death is what I call new beginning
A beginning to a new life
To a new world we can't enter
Without leaving our body

'Death is the gateway for life
To forget the past and present
To discover one's future
A life without tense and worries

'Death is the keyhole to life
A life of fearless days
Leaving the past and loss
Entering a peaceful unknown world

Love and Death

She drilled a nail to my chest
I shivered with pain

Tears came out of my eyes
And she was grinning

My dark blood was every where
And in her hands also

Then she made a cut with a knife
On my wounded chest

I felt pain on my left chest
And I screamed out loud

She touched the knife on my lips
An indication for no voice

The knife had two sharp edges
Shining like made of silver

Once again she made a cut on my chest
Its sharp point was touching my heart

I saw the same sharpness in her eyes too
Which was more than scary

I saw some tear drops on her  cheeks
I wiped it with my stiffed hands

I hold her hands and kissed on it
And she was smiling

I am dieng here for her better life
And I am happy for that

Unknowingly I touched my own chest
Felt something empty

It was my heart what I have lost
I faked a smile at her

It was my last moment before closing my eyes
Then I fell into my dark dreams

My last breath

Few more time left for me
I breath heavily
I remember the best time I had
I remember my past
I remember you and my love
I know its over
I needed you here with me
Nearby me on my last minutes
Nearby my death bed
Your memories are precious as you are
I value you over everything
I am falling into sleep
I felt abnormal
I whispered your name
I heard your voice
In my un-consious stage
I seen you in my minds view
Its my past coming in my mind
I tried to smile
But i felt something hot inside me
I tried to move and failed
My nostril threw a hot air out
It was my last breath

Haunting past

I looked through the open window
It was raining heavily
Some rain drops fell on my cheeks
And mixed up with my tears
I looked for the dark clouds
I saw something unusual
I find read clouds instead of black
Suddenly I realized I am also crying
My eyes were also red in color
I felt wetness in my cheeks
Spreading through the way to my chin
I tried to remember what I have lost
Its my own self what I lost
I lost myself in search of you
I am the person who loved you
My love was wild but true
I thought you will never leave
But you left me it was shocking
You don't know how much it affected me
Your absence took my life away
I changed myself for no reason
I cried every night thinking of you
I hoped you will come back one day
But I lost you in my dreams too
I know you are not remembering me
My pain, my tears, my love is unfinished
I locked myself here in my room
I locked myself for several days
I said I am okay and happy
I lied to everyone and smiled
But I only know what is happenning
I am alone with memories
I am alone with broken promises
I locked myself in my own broken shadows