Fear

My life is out of track
The day is red like blood
A red star is about to die
I want to sleep like a dead body
I have lost my soul and peace
Memories are burning my brain
I knelt down and screamed so loud
But my own voice returned to me
My heart is beating faster than lightning
I tried to shut my eyes
I tried to forget myself in my thoughts
But the memories are too strong
I closed my eyes and lie in my dark coffin

Nameless

Do you know my name?
I have lost it in my past
I heard someone whisper my name
Its you my dear friend
But you are far away from me
I tried to reach you but failed
I cried and called you
You didn't answer
You looked at me and smiled
I felt relaxed for a moment
I started walking towards you
But again I failed in my attempt
You are there I see you
Why don't you come to me?
I am begging for your kindness
You know my name that I know
But you are not answering me
You are trying to avoid me
I felt sad and gloomy
I tried not to cry
But my tears are falling
Like rain drops falling from sky

My Death

Death is not the end I know
But the death itself is calling me
I know everything has an end
We all die one day I know
But I feel my death very near
I am not afraid of the end
I heard the death bells are ringing
I had seen the black crow flying
Over my head and making noise
The end is very near I know
Standing a foot step away from me
My normal life turn to abnormal
What I am doing is waiting
Counting the last days
Waiting for the end of the days
Waiting for my death

Help me friend

Help me to fight with my life
Help me to replace my feelings
Help me to clear my memories
Help me to forget the past
Help me to wipe my tears
Help me to overcome my fears
Help me to help myself from falling down
Help me to cure my wounds
Help me to mend my broken heart
Help me to take one more breath
Help me to find myself

Fake World

I was in a dream of someone else
But I never realized that its fake
A fake world of fake people
I tried to find the way out of it
But I failed in my effort
Scary shadows were all around
I heard people screaming and crying
I was afraid and frightened
I felt cold and my body was shivering
I gulped my own sweat
I found it uneasy to breath there
I was about to stop breathing
I found my nostrils were bleeding
I tasted my own blood
I was weak and broken
And fell into unconscious
Fell into an another dream
Again I fell into a fake world
A fake world of fake people

Your Love is My Drug

I just want to stop my tears
Falling from my half closed eyes
You were always there for me
But now I feel like I am alone
I am alone with a broken heart
You left me without saying anything
I want you nearby me my dear
I can't stop you but I want you back
I didn't call you from back but I wanted
I thought you would look back to me
But all you did was walking away
I tried to hide myself in darkness
I tried to go back to my past again
But I failed in whatever I tried
All I have is you in my head
I tried to forget you but failed
How can I tell you my heart is paining
How can I smile again without you

All I need is a hug from you

I know you never wanted to hurt me

But it doesn't work I am dying 

My tears are flowing like a waterfall

I lost my senses, my mind became blank

How can I tell you that I am in hell

My body is in fire I am crying

I tried to be cool but I am burning

I can't see the wound but can feel the pain

I am faking smiles to hide everything

I am trying to act as normal

But I am crying I am dying inside

Please come back to me

Please don't go away from me

I need you to complete my life

I need you to hold my hands
I am nothing without you

I need your presence in my life
I love you unconditionally 

I am incomplete without you

Broken Love

I wanted to be with you forever
I loved to see you near me
Your love was a dream for me
I wanted to be loved by you
But my fate was something else
You said no to my love
You asked to forget everything
I fell for you without any reason
My love for you was unexpected
My love for you was unpredictable
I wanted to sleep near you
I wanted to wake up seeing you
But everything was my own desire
Everything was my own broken dream
Its my own fate not your mistake

In your thoughts

Lost in your thoughts
You are my dear friend
Today I am loving you
More than I ever did
My heart needs you
To fill the emptiness
I don't want to lose you
Please hold my hands
Please don't walk away
I want you near me
You are the one
Who made me smile
Stay with me forever
Don't leave me

Story of a Teardrop

A teardrop born in my eyes

A tiny little water drop

Shining like a small diamond
It is transparent and beautiful

I took it on my fingertip
It gazed at me and smiled
I had seen a sweetness in it
It is a result of pain
I was eager to know its future
Suddenly it fall down
Roll down from my fingers
And fall into the floor
It died an instant death
And disappeared from the world

Lonely Shadow

I can't stand alone
I can't stand without you
But all I can do is waiting
Waiting for a miracle to happen
Waiting for you to come back

I am a lonely shadow
Shadow of a little boy
I have lost my way
I get stuck somewhere alone
I am afraid and panic

I screamed for help
I called you by name
But nobody was there
Nobody was hearing me
I am all alone and tired

I saw people staring at me
I saw them walking away from me
My eyes searched for you
I found nothing but my own shadow
A lonely shadow with a broken heart

My bloody heart

My heart is burning
I drilled a nail on it

It skipped one beat
Skipped one more beat
The wound started paining
Blood started flowing
I tear my heart from the chest
Staring at that bloody thing
Like a worst dirty creature
I throw it away
But still its paining
Its now not a part of me
But still I can feel the pain
Still I can feel it crying

Un-natural

Lying again in my coffin
Days end out with fire 
Night is about to fall
The sun is burning
I closed my eyes 
And fell into a dream
The dream of memories
The dream of you
A tear drop born in my eyes
My hand reached for that
but it fall into my cheeks
And died there

Assasination of Dreams

A day too shattered away

In my faded memories

I heard people laughing at me

And making fun of me

I had seen them leaving me

And I had thrown into darkness

I am unknown to this world

I tried to hide somewhere

But I failed in my attempt

I heard a sound of boots

I saw some ugly faces

I was worried and stressed

I tried to run from there

But again I caught by them

The selfish ugly peoples

I started hating them

They are assassins

The dirty bloody killers

They wounded my dreams

And crushed my heart

They are hunters

The keepers of death

Then they too left me there

In a dark place of death

I lied there motionless

With a heavy pain inside

With broken dreams of life

And haunting silent memories

Dreams of Love

It was a cold night,
I was lying on my bed
Thinking of my lady,
And I fall into asleep
I was on a lonely road,
of dreams and nightmares
She come to me,
And hold my hand
Her smiles gave me strength,
And she looks like an angel
Her eyes are like an ocean,
I drowned in it
I was in intoxication,
And went near her
She was breathing heavily,
I felt it on my neck
I hugged her
She was smooth like a rose
I touched her cheeks,
And she closed her eyes
The wind was blowing faster
We were in heaven
I saw a rainbow there
My lips touched her lips
A gentle kiss of love
She smells like lotus
My heart was melting
I wanted that dream stay forever
I wanted to hold her forever
She is my drug
Her touch are my senses
Still I am in intoxication
And dreaming of a dream
Where we are together again

Pain of a lonely heart

I waited so long for you

For an answer from you

All I have is pain and tears

For my love to you

All I got was sleepless nights

You hurt me so much

You broke my heart

You left me alone

You left me in my own tears

I don't want to take revenge

But I want you to see my pain

I want to break your heart

I want to hurt you once

Only to show you the pain

The pain of being ignored

The pain of loneliness

The pain of a wounded heart

I want you to cry for me

Only for once

I want you to open your eyes

And see how I am living alone

With your memories

In a lost world of broken dreams

You and My Dreams

Admitting my fate
The daylight is fading
Darkness is near
Searching in my past
Found myself with you
Last days of our love
Last days of happiness
My eyes were closed
Covered with a smile
Lost in your dreams
Living in your heart
Felt you nearby me
Felt your breath
I wanted to touch you
Wanted to hug you
Wanted to kiss you
But I lost my dreams
I lost your memories
My hands reached for you
but you are not there
A teardrop fall down
From my eyes
Now there is no more me
I lost myself in you
In my dreams
In your memories
And I am not anymore
To live my dreams

My Death

I am dreaming of my death
Or I am already dead
I can see everyone crying around me
And I saw some feelingless peoples
I am the center of everyone
Everyone is talking about me
They are praising me
I wondered why all these drama
I never knew that they are 'nice'
Nobody was there when I needed
Never ever I saw someone
When I was alone and upset
Now they are showing off
I don't bother about them
Everything is over
Its the time for the last part
Four people took me up
And placed my body on their shoulder
We are on the way to cemetery
It is a lonely cemetery
Away from the crowd
It is the end of a black day
The sun is in west
They burried my body there
They are satisfied
As they finished their job
Everyone left me alone there
I was alone in my whole life
And I am alone in my death too

The Clown

I am a fool, a clown or a baffoon
I make others happy even I am sad
Always I keep a smile on my face
As that is my trade mark
I use to laugh as louder I can
I am too a human but a clown
Peoples make fun on me
They laugh even I cry
I am a stupid foolish man
I use to do funny things
For make others laugh
But nobody want to see me by near
Nobody see my heart
Nobody want to know my sadness
All they need my one act play
All they want to see my performance
No one noticed my tears
Nobody see I am crying
After all I am a joker
A foolish funny humanbeing

Dead Man's Lamentation

Forget the words to say
Forget the way to walk
All I can see is a dark passage
I can't move my legs
But someone is pushing me from behind
Its a shadow of mine only
Came from my haunted memories
Its a part of my fearful past
I am deceased
I was killed by my own dreams
All I can remember is that faded days
And that nightmares
Which forced me to move to this hell
I can't open my mouth
Someone had stitched my lips together
I screamed but swallowed my own voice
Someone had cut my hands
I tried to crawl through my own blood
But I was weak
I left myself there for my fate
I throbbed for one last time
and collapsed motionless

My hope

I lost one more day without you

A day without sunshine

 A day of loneliness

I waited so long for you

 But you didn’t come

I was thinking and hoping

Thoughts of you are heavy

Memories of you are painful

I found a teardrop in my eyes

I wondered why am I crying

Why my heart is screaming

I am missing you

I want to live in my past

I am dreaming about being with you

I still hope for a possibility

For being with you

I am wishing for one day more

To live with you

One day more to hold your hand

One day more to sit beside you

And live together till our last breath

Till the earth stop rotating

For My Sister

She is a witch
But my sweet sister
She is naughty
But my sweet sister
I love her so much
We are not blood related
But she is always there for me
She is the reason for my smile
When we fights I want her to won
I like when she gets angry on little things
I am the most happiest person
When she is with me
She wanted me to do little things
I am happy to do any stupid things for her
She is my little sister
My sweet little sister

Lamentation of a soul

I am an unborn soul
A lost soul of a silent saint
Living in a selfish world
Beside fake faceless people
I forget my past
But I know my future
I am invisible and untouchable
I am sharp as the rays of sun
I've seen people changed
I've seen people fall and lie
I hate this world
I hate all selfish people
I wish for never to born
I want to be unborn forever
I will live like this only
As a part of my faith
But not as a part of this world
I don't believe in fate
I want to be unknown
I am afraid of this world
I want to live like nothing
I am an unknown soul
An unborn soul of a saint
An unnamed soul of peace
A heartless soul of nature
A feeling less soul of Silence

Witch and Vampire

It was a full moon day
I was sleeping in my coffin
I heard a distasteful sound
And opened my eyes
I felt something unnatural
Howling wolves are all around
Suddenly my coffin was opened
I jumped out in anger
It was a witch in woolen coats
With a broom on her hand
She turned to me and smiled
I showed my hangs in anger
She continued smiling at me
She waked me up after years
I was in thirst for blood
I leaped towards her
She did something magical
I lost my consciousness
I felt losing my unnatural powers
I surrendered to her
I knelt down in front of her
I have lost my fangs
I have lost my wild habits
Her magic made me human again
How is this possible
She helped me to stand up
And took me to a magical world
A world with no marks of pain
A world where there is no deaths
A world where everyone can live happily

Lost Friendship

It was a morning time

I was in hurry to somewhere

All it happened suddenly

She came across my way

I was wondered first

But felt frustrated later

She saw me and our eyes met

I wanted her to say something

But she said nothing

I tried to hide myself

I moved away from her

We were once friends

Now behaved like strangers

Our friendship was faded

I had lost her somewhere in my past

I blamed my faith

I tried to understand my fate

We are in a world of illusion

Where sometimes we are winners

Sometimes we are losers

I lost a friend

I lost my friendship

But I will wait till the fate turns

I hope, one day again she will comes my way

On my death bed

She stands nearby my death bed
I smiled at her but she didn't
She holds my hand but said nothing
A tear drop fall from her eyes
I tried to catch it but I lose
I wipe her tears with my hand
Her face is smooth as cotton
She kissed me on my forehead
Hold her lips there for seconds
I felt her warm breath and tears
She cried like she had lost something
She tightly hold my hands
Her fingers locked my fingers
As she don't want to lose me
She said something unclearly
Again a tear fall from her eye
But this time it fell on my cheek
Everything happened is like dream
I have lost in her eyes
I felt some magic in her touch
I want her to be here with me
Till I breath for the last time
I want her to be with me
Ttill my sole leaves my body
I want her to be with me
Till my eyes closed for the very last time

Walking alone

I am walking through an empty road
I am tired and despondent
I never wanted to be here
I never wanted to being alone
Its my fate that I am here
I lost My friends some where
I have lost my senses too
The day is on its ending
The sun is on its way to west
Darkness is about to happen
But I am still on the half way
My destination is still unknown
I am afraid and impatient
All I can do is keep walking
A walk towards an unknown destiny
A walk in search of my future
A walk that never ends
A walk to find me in myself

Story of a stolen heart

I am missing something
That something was once a part of me
That's nothing but my heart only
But i can still feel its presence
Not in my body but in somewhere else
I can feel it somewhere in you
You had stolen it, your eyes says that
Keep it with you, i don't mind
I saw you are hiding it behind you
you peeped at me and smiled
I did nothing but glanced at you
I want to tell something but didn't
I forget the words i want to tell you
listen to my heart, it knows all
Keep it near to your ears
listen to the song it sings for you
You are the only one who can hear it
You are the only one my heart needs
You are the only one for whom my heart beats for.....

For your smile

This one is for my friend, my mentor, someone special :

You told me you have lost your smile
You told me you can't smile anymore
But you are the reason behind so manys smile
You are the one who made me always smile
Then how comes you said me that you can't smile
Its the best smile i saw in someones face is yours
Sometimes i used to watch you playing with kids
I was happy for you, coz you are the reason for my smile
Its your smile that made me smile always
Its not easy as words to say the beauty of your smile
Its like a rainbow in a sunny day after a rain
I like it more than a smile of a newborn baby
I can take any risk for you to make you smile again
I can break any rules for you to make you smile again
I will fight to the whole world for make you smile again
Remember, how can i smile when you are sad?

After my death

I know you are missing me now

But its too late my friend

You were always busy

Everytime I tried to talk

You avoided me

But I never stop trying

But its too late my dear

I remember that day

The day you stand beside me

You stand beside my coffin

I know you were crying

I wanted to wipe your tears

But I was helpless

One of your teardrop fell on me

I still value that gift

You hided your tears from others

But I heard your heart weeping for me

You wanted to tell something

But you didn’t drop a word

I remember you brought some roses for me

But you forgot flowers may fade

Your friendship is precious than diamonds

My dear, don’t cry anymore

I can still see you, I can still hear you

Our friendship will never die

You are not alone my friend

I will be always there for you

In your memmories and thoughts

Escape from the world

I want to quit
From this fake world
I want to escape
From fake peoples
Everyone is selfish
Everyone is blind
Why I born here
Why I am living here
They are feeling less
They are murderers
Murderers of my thoughts
Murderers of my feelings
They are dangerous than death
They are not human
I am afraid of them
I am hiding from them
Can I escape from them?
Can I escape from this world?

Who am I?

I am not a human
I am not an animal
I am not a Robot
I am an unknown creature
A feeling less dirty creature

Life is far from me
Death is afraid of me
I don't have any past
And my future is unpredictable

I am the question
But the answer is unknown
I died so many times
But again born as unknown

I am living in a dark world
I am alone there
My thoughts are like fire
They are burning inside me

I don't have a heart
I don't have a brain
I don't have a shadow
I don't have any reflection

I am nothing but pain itself
I am a broken mirror
I am a hidden truth
I am a creation of my own imagination

My Friend

In the journey of life,
Always we met someone,
It was fate that I met you,
You said it is magic of words,
But its the magic of God,
Who wanted us to meet
We talk and become friends
My friend, you are not alone
I will always be there for you
Look at your shadow, that's me
At night look at the stars
I am one of them shining for you
My friend, you are not alone
You can hold my hands
You can cry on my shoulder
My friend, you are not alone
We are friends forever
Don't be afraid of losing me
I will never forget you
Its not only some words
Its a promise
from the bottom of my heart
Till my last breath
Till I'll shut my eyes
for the very last time
We are friends
Friends forever and ever

Feelingless

Still I am alive for what
Everyone has gone their way
Nothing is left here for me
Sitting alone here in the darkness
Staring at stars crying for nothing
my body is sweating and shivering
tried to hide the feelings but failed
red tears fall down to the sand
color of my life was changed
everything changed everyone changed
I bite my broken nails
I am hunger to eat myself
I have lost my senses
Found myself in nowhere
Am I dead or alive who cares
I flew through the dark sky
I swim through the dirty ocean
My soul was dead but not my body
How can i kill myself
How can i kill my pain
I hit my body with heavy stones
blood started falling from my wounds
but i can't felt the touch
the air was hot which i breath
My soul fully leaved the body
My soul is free now
Free from the body
Free from the pain

Depth of pain

dreams were faded
memories are haunted
no where to run away
no where to hide my feelings
Lost everything in the past
Living with an empty mind
With a wounded heart
Pain is in every inch
with lots of sorrows
hand full of tears
no more hope
Living like a shadow
without colurs and movement
like a moon's reflection
fall in a dirty bloody lake

My life is a dew drop

Yes I think my life is a dew drop

and yet so many things

In the morning it glistens

shines and promising

by the evening it evaporates

Yes I know my life is a dew drop